Orlando

Yes, I know two in a day, but I don't know why I remembered Tilda Swinton. The first time I saw her was with the movie Orlando (1992) and adored it, the movie is based from the Virginia Woolf book Orlando and it was directed by Sally Potter.

It's about the search of finding one true self. So today I remembered that I loved the soundtrack, so I search till I found what I wanted, I will leave here some photos of that gorgeous woman and the song Coming performed by Jimmy Somerville from the movie, hope you enjoy and if you haven't seen it, give it a try.

black paw, pink paw

Well as of June 27th I have another cat, Isis, she is has a tiger-like patter on her whole boddy, black paws and lips, she look a little like Gaia (my first cat who arrived not more that 2 months ago) but Gaia has a white parts of her body and pink paws.

The story behind it is that we where selling our stuff in the flea market that's just across the street from where I live. Chainís, Elle, Lynx and me where playing cards on the street by our stuff, right beside us is parked the cabin of a semi; like around 10 am we heard a kitty that sounded like it was trapped and needed help, Lynx searched but didn't find any kitten. Chainís that had gone to the store to get a coke said the kitten was under the defense of the semitruck and she was able to get out of there by herself, then she aproached us, we all liked how she looked, then the idea of keeping her crept and Lynx took her to the house to bathed her, and that's how we adopted Isis.

Now, I thought Gaia and Isis would just get along because they are both small, I was wrong. Ever since yesterday when Gaia aproaches Isis or vice versa the hissing and the growls begin, but they don't do anything to each other, if Isis is in a room Gaia wants nothing to do with that, Isis could care less it seems.

Right now we put separate food dishes but they still preffer the main one, although now that I am looking to the extra dish I notice it's empty, have no clue to wich one eat it all, but hey at least I know I'm not waisting food, right?

I want to put a bigger kitty litter box, but I have to wait until I get paid so I can go and buy one, the ones with like a roof, yeah those, so they won't disturb one another while pooping.

My friends say that Isis is better looking than Gaia, I don't agree with them, Gaia is a really pretty cat and so is Isis, they kinda look alike, except for the traits I mention earlier, oh, I forgot to say that Gaia's size is almost double of Isis, I just hope this crazyness will end and they will be able to play together.

Well, in another post, when the rechargeable batteries are charged and I find the cable to trasfer the photos to the computer I will upload some pictures of them.

Angry?

Am I angry right now? Yes a little, it's an uncomfortable feeling, don't like it. How did I get angry? Frankly I think it's because I lack common sense, but I don't think all of it is my fault, there where two in the argument.

Don't know what is my fucking problem? I miss initiative. I know all my defects and my bad deed, all the things I hate about me, I know them all but still, can't seem to change the way my thought process works.

I... well, don't want this emotion any longer but know not how to cast it out, cast it away from me, have no clue what will be the outcome if I speak my mind again, will I get even madder? Will everything be solved? And fuck, I already know the bloody answer, if I don't talk I will still feel uncomfortable, so I'll go ahead and open my mouth any way... The consequences are the product of one's actions, and not saying anything will also have it's consequences, so...

I feel like I'm always going on circles inside my head, redundant, I'm sad to admit that I am a very square person, now don't take me wrong I feel like I am very open minded in a lot of topics, laid back, but when I get an idea of how things should be like, then, that's how things should be, when they are not my mind doesn't flex, in fact, when I think something I get so fixated on an idea that my memory bends thing so I remember that instead of the fact, the "real one" and not the idealized version.

Well I feel calmer now, I also know the reply I will get, I think it will be silence and a snarky remark, making me feel bad. Don't know why but I will feel everybody is out to get me, to point out my wrong doings, to judge me even; and when they do I don't take it nicely. I feel like "hey I don't point out your faults, don't come pissing on my parade". I hide me under flaky excuses, the worst part of it is that I become a flaky person, because I am never me, then who am I. Who the fuck am I? If I quiet everything inside me, but when I let it out I don't feel like a good person. The moral kicks in, and I hate apologizing for things I did feel but have to say I'm sorry so that I don't hurt the other party involved, because I care for them and I want for them to like me, love me or even respect me, maybe not bending over so much will help for that, but first I have to control me, see there I go again, hiding. Well enough for now, I've ranted what seems to me for hours.

Highly Recommended!

When I think I have something good to write in my blog, there is a voice in my head that says: write it down somewhere, and I never do because I think that I will remember. Well I don't.

This past few day I've done practically nothing but watch movies, so here are ones I liked a lot!!!

Disclaimer: MAY CONTAIN SPOILERS!!!!!

Pineapple Express (2008)


Very funny movie about weed and all the stuff that tends to happen when you consume in very large quantities..

If you think the relationship between dealer and customer has to be "to the point", because everyone knows that unwritten rule, that is why Dale is skeptic about his friendship with his dealer, so next time you are with yours think twice before leaving so promptly.

It's a ride through the haze of being a murder witness while heavily stoned and all the trials and tribulations that comes with it.

Highly recommendable to watch.... while stoned.

Blood, The Last Vampire (Live Action Movie) May of 2009.

If you enjoy good anime, you have to know Saya from the anime movie of the same name above.

Well the live action movie I was surprised to see that the movie didn't suck. It was true to the character of Saya, the camera work was good in some fighting scenes (kind off Le pacte des loups). Some of the american actors didn't act (wich I expected to tell the truth).




Over all, the story is very similar to the anime one except for the last third of the movie, and that part of the story kept me interested still. So I would highly recommend watching this one.

Here to the left we have Saya the anime version and Saya the L.A.M, it was funny to see them together.

And if you haven't watch any of them, please watch anime first, then the L.A.M., compare and enjoy.

And last but not least....

Dead Leaves (デッド リーブス, Deddo Rībusu) a 2004 anime movie.
On this one all I can tell you is WATCH IT!!!

It´s a dynamic anime, with lots of colors, lots of violence and blood, absolutelly creative angles and a really comic repertoir of mischevious characters that wreak havoc ina prison on the moon named DEAD LEAVES.

I just found an incredible artist

Camilla D'Errico

This was some of her artwork, wich I think it has great composition, sophisticated and sexual images, well hope you enjoyed the few images I posted, I will post more soon, but for right now is ok. Oh you migh see some of her artwork on the comic book Nightmares and Fairytales, before her the artist that drew the comic was Foo Swee Chin (FSc), I will post about her later as well because her imagination is wild and chaotic and bloody, well enough for today.

Nuevas cosas!!!

He estado escuchando últimamente a My Brightest Diamond, los discos de A thousand shark teeth y el que más me gusto fue el de Bring me the workhorse. La voz de Shara es singular, teatral, dramática y jugetona. La música es un festín que despliega visualizaciones mentales variadas y aquí les pongo unas fotos de algunos de sus discos y el video de Dragonfly.

spiralmantra wm & stilettos

Where does it take us?

I have had a pretty rough year this 2009, but it has had "the Good Times" you know the memorable stuff where growth as a human being occurs and shit. This is June the half of the year, it feels longer, much, much longer but some how I've managed to maintain contact with reality, and the reality that I am getting older and I have done nothing, I have just collected interesting facts along the way but never produced anything great. And who the fuck says I have to do anything with my life; that's the thing I want to do something for me first, something I can be content with, so far I guess I haven't found it, or haven't searched enough. Call it selfishess but I need to take care of me first or otherwise I would not exist, I would be alive but mearly as a puppet that does everything she is told, taught and no real, proper experience. I need that selfishness, I need that greed, that lust and that anger to breath almost.

We all need a plan, or something to look forward to, and a strategy to get us from one room to the next until we obtain a nice enough view. I hope the trip goes well.

I know I am too vague when I write but I feel as if I can't be more explicit with the details, the juicy bit are not mine to share. I tell you this paranoia is a trickster.